Mugi

Hate me

2010-03-30T10:05:00.000-07:00

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say F*CK YOU!!!

Oops, its just a lyrics, don't wrong me with the words, hehehe. what do you think? pretty nice huh? it's the new song I just discover when I was trying to download some heavy metal hardcore song. It's not the complete lyrics but later on I'll give you the full detail so just relax. Ok this song is the newest to my favorite songs that I am listening right now, Hate me. that is the title of this song. If you just listen to this song you'll find why I liked it. I dunno if this song suited peoples taste or it's just the lyrics, but for me not only the music but all of its aspects. But what really takes my attention is the lyrics. the band really made it simple and easy to understand, in other words Naive, but being naive, makes this bonus track from there album caught my attention.

As you can see in the first statement of this post, its the first stanza of the song. well, I think just seeing the first stanza lyrics will let you know what does this song really means. Yes its about love or should we say HATE that love has made. Nostalgic for the likes of me. Why? coz I surely relate this song to my own experience. hahaha every time I hear this song, I feel some that I can express my feeling, and I am quite happy about the content of this song.

In my own opinion, HATE ME is a song of a man fully expressing his feeling for the woman who broke his heart or neither Dumped or broke up with him because of some unreasonable problem or etc. I liked how he throw the wrong things that the woman made. Me, also have the same thing the lyrics of this song is trying to say, coz once, I also loved someone but ended up with some nasty problem, after that we never talk to each other, and passed through each other like there is no one out there. Even a hello or hi never came out from our own mouth, And I think even now she's holding a grudge for me, she never accepted any of my apologies. Even if I know that she know, that she also have some blames on those issues. Even on social networks, she started to delete me as one of her friends. Even though I'm willing to sorry for everything, It is her that cannot accept it. I dont know, whether she holds grudge on me or she has some feelings for me to? that he cannot forgive me and befriend with me once and for all. Well I only know one thing. And that is, I'm tired of it and I will not pursuing her anymore. That fine with me. She's so childish, I think she should act mature.... Making childish act brings me more awkward feeling around her. ehem sorry, back to the song.

This is my favorite part of the song:
"You've just loved to hate me!"
And another is this
"Dont wanna be your romeo! Coz your not goddamn Juliet! "
ahahaha how meaningful(FOR ME, I guess )
But thats what make this song really great for me. And know its time for you to see the lyrics I was talking,

HATE ME
by 5 FINGER DEATH PUNCH!

BITCH!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

Dont wanna be your tourniquet, for minor lacerations!
Dont wanna be your Romeo cause your no goddamn Juliet!
(You always did know... Just what to say... Insult to injury...)
YOU JUST LOVED TO HATE ME!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

Youve got a gun! Ive got a gun! Lets write a tragic ending!
Dont wanna be this way again! Dont wanna be the one to blame!
(You can have the high roads... Ill take the lows... Disguise the fraility.)
I JUST LOVE TO HATE YOU!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

YOU JUST LOVE TO HATE ME!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

Its a bit short for a lyrics but surely have some valuable meaning for me and the others.....

HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And they Begun......

2010-03-27T15:16:00.000-07:00

I'm not writing this one because I'm concerned. Just want to say what's on my mind about this matter... and I know many will find it idiotic and stupid, but I also think sometime that myself holds a great stubbornness, and philosophies that are not reasonable enough to cope with reality, (am I getting a bit serious here?) hehe well, that what I think, but I decided to stick in what i believe. And this is the thing.

AND THEY BEGUN......

To spread the word, pleasant and beautiful words coming from holy mouths of them. promising change and progress. I know, you know what it means, Power, Money, Social ranking, yes its politics. I know when someone sees what I am writing, especially for those who is running this may 10. they will get pissed about me, but I dont care about them, This is my privileged on this social network, I just want to expressed myself. It's not that I hate those people who is running this coming election, but after this thing, will there be a change, I don't care about local candidate, I do care is the higher ups, Presidential Candidates, Senatorial? Congressmen? Will this coming election brings any change in this striving country of us, will they change all the things that the previous leaders did not attain after a century, Those are the questions not only me but many teens are asking to them selves, I've seen it once Talking shitty things to people that they will bring change and rise this country once more, but what happened, Being one of the most corrupt country in Asia? is that the change our country was attaining for so long, T-T. Thus, will the next president truly Succeed changing this damned whole thing is our country, well, I'm just talking one sided.

In my own opinion, well do not take this seriously, I think nothing will change, this will go on and repeat itself again and again, look, how can we totally wipe corruption in the government? when the government has its own evil intention inside, can the next president terminate all those little punks inside the government? I think no, coz if yes, then there will nothing left inside? hahaha, That's why there will nothing change, but I'm no nostradamus to predict all this things, I'm just assuming those thing. And we will see what will happens after this, If I am right then. My idea are correct and If I am not then, I think its time for me to Change my state of mind. And review all the Principles I am clinging to. well, its to early to say, We'll see about that.........

Is this thing really fun?

2010-03-13T20:40:00.000-08:00

Last march 9 one of my companion was married with his Gf. sure it was fun to know that he was starting to build a family. And we all celebrated it with fun and joy even though i did not come to the reception bcoz there is some errand to be done with.=, and (sigh) i ended up doing nothing and all afternoon i spend it with pareng computer and mareng internet. really this two thing are the ones make my time worthy, even socializing became boring for me. many friends are consistently asking for me to out and wanted me to jammed with them(newly found friends. good they are, crazy as i am!) but i always turning them down. cozi felt It will be nostalgic for somehow. back to the topic. then when we talk from work he began to tell story about his wedding and more. i was interested so i listen to him all the way. Then something came up in my mind.

The Question Is:
1. "Is it really fun, happy, joyful being married?"
2. "What's the feeling being married?"
3. "what kind of hardship did my friend gone to just to get married?"
4. and (this is the cruel part) " thought most people who got married, in the long run will eventually divorced
and separated? what will it be for those two?"

then thoughts became words and begin to ask questions out of curiosity.

and then after getting their opinions i jump to my own conclusion

The answers:

1. The joy of being with their special someone... happiness... hehe I also got through this things but not to the extend to be married with her, even though I always enjoy being with her and doing things with joy with her make me happy, but not to think eternally. then someone told me "There is a word in this world that means choosing and a word that give the answer for who you choose." then In seconds I understand what that means. the word for choosing is GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND and if you already choose them its MARRIAGE.

2. Is getting married has different feeling from getting a gf/bf? thats what on my mind coz i never know what kind of feeling it was. coz I am not married! hahaha. "Lets leave it that way" I told myself, coz I want to know it for myself and not by others to talked to me. because there is no fun with it to know what its like to be.

3. he told me. it was really like hell when it comes to preparations, just asking the parents of the bride for her hands make him so worked out. the expenses they need to be done, the reception and all, but after that he told me that it was a rare and great experience that he will never forget. and after all the hellish thing. it became heaven. he told. i think what kind of heaven he is referring to? well i guess its the result of his effort with the feelings from their honeymoon. >.<

4. And i think there are too many people around me is cruel but i just realized? Im much more cruel that those. wah!!! since i got some idea from past that married couple, when they get bored by themselves, ending up with annulment. and breaking up. leaving their children behind with scorn faith with them. I disgust those kind of people to extend that i always think too many people are like them. thats why i told myself not to rush for these kind of things.but i was wrong, there are still people who believes in faith and trust. someone says. "Time will come, you, stubborn anjho(thats what they call me) you're to dense and always saying you're interest for girls have gone since the last time and just flirting around, someday finally you'll say WILL YOU MARRY ME to the girl you will find in the future, definitely asking like a dog(I'm totally pissed!) and will find the true joy of being married to your love. and when the time comes. It's up to you whether you'll break up or stay eternally(I'll smacked this person next time) " those last phrases he told me with a smile on his face, i think his referring to his own experience. (baka) idiot.

then after thinking of those kind of things, i know, something changes with the way i'm thinking for those things, even if it is a little i know somehow it helps me to realized something.
but some should be left behind and leave it to a persons own disposition in life.
I'm not going to rush...
I'm not going to fail again...
I will work hard for my future...
and i know, for a long run...
I will be rewarded....

New Road to Wonder

2010-02-11T16:38:00.000-08:00

Well my first blog this year, sure fun to blog again. well this year is different from the other year passed by, well i guess its because we moved out again? its not especial, though i already lived here in my high school days so I'm used to it. OK lets bring the facts.

First this year "I'm an out of school youth"
but you can say that I'm not in youth anymore, coz I've got my balls already grown up. Just kidding this year I'll turning "TWENTY".Yes! Twenty years old. hows that! one thing that I'm afraid off, (sigh) to become old! but its nothing to be worried about, coz its the way human are, aging till you get yourself an old stinky old hag/ fart and die. oopsie Ive got carried out, well back to the topic, by now I don't go to any school, when we moved out to our new place, it was decided that I'll transfer, but luck is off my side, I got my self late for the enrollment and not even getting my TOR from my previous school. So.... For the meantime I'm helping my old folks running our business. And also finding a job while I'm out of the game. n_n I'm such a good boy hehehe.

"Next is Into the job"
My father's sister, my Aunt is a manager in a great hotel in our city, and I'm lucky coz I've given the chance to worked there, and my sister too. I worked as an extra in the kitchen dept. and my sister is on the waiter and waitress dept. its a good experience though its not my line up, coz I'm an IT student and there's no computer around the kitchen to worked with. arggh, I thought I'm lucky gaining some working exp. but its not on my line. But I'm Great full that I was able to earned some cash from there even though their rate is not pretty well, Oh well I just it can't be help.

"Waiting In Vain?"
Am I waiting in vain? not really, I guess, let me be straight, well I'm waiting for some important contact, I'm just waiting to be summoned so i can train for my next job. Being an System operator for the up coming MF ELECTION, (sorry for the term) Yes! I'm one of those suckers waiting to be paid for the sake of our beloved election, which means nothing but just for formalities, Traditions and what so ever. I never trusted anyone from the higher ups of our government, they can only do is blabber themselves off and then, Ching! You've got your self fooled by another talk shit from this bastards! hehehe. huh,,,, I hoped this waiting will last.

"Moved Forward"
I'm moving forward with no detour or other second thought on my mind. My plans are pretty well initialized by now. I'm not planning on taking anymore troubles in my young innocent life, and I hope this will flow smoothly as i want. I'm not planning to seek for another love for now, but if the chances are for real, why should i avoid it, but another thing than that will be no no for good. I'm happy for what I am for now. Making new friends, learning more about life, slowly but surely making my path to adulthood, learning more to be a good man, making things up with someone i troubled before, and all the thing that made me regret will be kick out upon my new life. Even I got some of god's challenges... I'm not planning to Stop, I'll faced it head on. If there's no more road to walk on. I'll make one and flourished it so i can walk again. That the spirit!

"Whats next?"

For now I'm thinking of new things for my future, of course I'm planning to have some good time as well, but not letting my guard down, that's what i learned from one of my colleagues and good friend. His name is Joey, though he is older than me but we get along pretty well... And his one reason that makes me realize not to take my life for granted. B'coz I'll end up wasted. Back again to the topic. I'm planning on finishing my IT course then take another course of ECE of Coe. I'm choosing those two for my next plans. And most of all, I'm planning to work abroad, It's not like I don't want to work here in our country but, I want to gain some more knowledge from some foreigner, especially from Indians and middle east people, coz as much as I know, they are the best competitives in IT industry and I want to gain something from them. Hehehe wont lose to them.

Well I guess its all for now. Such a good feeling after long, I can post another of my thoughts again.

When Love is suppressed, Hatred takes place....

2009-06-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

Love is a wonderful thing,

Being in Love is the greatest thing that would happen to everyone.

Love makes everyone comes to cloud 9.

YES, true
and Yes, some called it heaven
and some call it "HELL"
"DESPAIR"
"COURSE"

And when LOVE is SUPPRESSED, HATRED takes places.

i do feel the same by that time my loved becomes hatred and despair, many others feels the same too, and few of them committed different acts that is not appropriate.
If you never experience this kind of change, I'll tell you what I feel most of the time.

Its hard to be in that situation, despair and hatred is not the emotion you'll want to experience. Sadness and feeling down makes my stomach hurts, I feel i want to kill, I am easy to get irritated and i am always hot headed. I don't want to participate to an happenings, i always want to be with my desktop all the time, it for me to forget what the feeling is, its hard to hide what i feel from others, pretending to smile even my feelings are tormenting me most of the time, It was like an eternity of hell. sadness, madness, insanity, and wild! I started to have this world and all the people surrounding me.
FUCK THOSE WHO FUCKED ME.
DIE ALL THOSE BASTARD
I'LL KILL 'EM ALL
I HATE THIS FUCKING WORLD.

All i do is smoke, drink, stay up late, even my studies i take them for granted, I got low marks and my social status change, my friends started to feel I'm not with them anymore.

But thank god, I survived that kind of dimension I've been, But i always think, if that those committed suicide and unlawful crimes have also been in that kind of dimension? Well i think it might be, All i can say about what happened is i really understand them. and for those reasons i got there, all i can say is

THANK YOU, AND FUCK YOU

Smells like "ELECTION" is in the air!!

2009-05-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

I can Smell it,
I can hear it,
I can feel it,

What a pain......
"Philippines ELECTION 2009" is coming, better to be prepared. I can smell the different odor of politicians. I can hear all the things they blabber over the people who makes them believed by some foolish shit talks they gave.

I don't believed.......
I think all of this is SHIT TALK, promise there, promise here, bah!!!!!, you all sucks, maybe others don't, but still majority are all fools, I CAN HEAR all the lies, PAGBABAGO? for hundreds of years, there is NO CHANGES AT ALL! you can tell me that if you change your politically Advocacy. ANOTHER lies! AND NO TRUTHS

I don't need this shit!.....
all i can tell is BAH!!!!! i can feel it. there is no sense making all this preparation for the up coming ELECTION bcoz IT WILL BE THE SAME!!!

ADIOS!!!

Hatred

2009-04-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

This past few days.......
I think I'm starting to hate the world....

But seriously, I am, I don't know how? But inside me.... I feel like the world is just a big pile of sh*t. Then something come up to my mind, "Is there any thing that is true?" Coz I'm thinking, In our present times, no one is true. Even to their own selves.

I think everything is a lie....
Just lie, all those stuffs that you can see in an idiotbox is all lies. Media? I think they are trying t manipulate our minds, like brainwashing us or controlling us, Coz I think they are the only one that holds the mass informastion before it aired on T.V, Am I right? thats why I think they have the power to manipulate those informastion and change its details before it aired? No one is true.... its a big fukery.

Don't you think religious group are for real?
I dont think so.... There are so many religious group, but are you sure that they are for real? form me they're just scums that are pretending to be good, but deep inside, they only want is to gain power, To gain controll, I've know so much of that! And I'm sick of hearing those shiT*y things from them. trying to tell us to be good, but how about those stinky fools. That why i dont believed in them. But i Know there is god and i only believed in one god, that is jesus christ, I dont need a religious group to believed.

the world has many problems. and every problem causes another.
i dont know.... I think I am just confused....
I just need time to think.

Unhealed wounds.

2009-04-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Deeper as it gets...

worsen than I though...

Uglier by those who met...

What a lines, ^^,

But somehow Many uses those kind of lines. to think of it yes...

those lines are usually the lines of those depressed.

I dont like to be depressed..

so.......

I'm not going to continue this sh*t.

7 WAYS TO GET THROUGH THE SUMMER

2009-04-08T20:00:00.001-07:00

Here are some tips how to spend your summer with leisure time!
By me:

1. Summer Resorts!
With a good ambiance, fresh air, and a relaxing view. Anyone will enjoy a summer resort to spend their summer with their family and friends. For me spending my summer here will be fun and relaxing vacation.

2. Summer Beverage

Some cold and chill drinks will ease the heat of the sun,
Drinking/eating some summer beverages sures refreshing and fun. Doing you own recipe and sharing it to others surely fun, you can experiment recipes and you can also sell it to the neighborhoodd for some extra income this summer!

3. Beaches
Summer surely hot! isn't it, and one way the ease this heat is to go to................

BEACHES!!!

have some fun and enjoy the water @ beaches! Do things that will satisfy your need for enjoyment and make your self enjoy the white sand, sky blue water, beach volleyball and many more!

4. Malling
Want to refresh your self without spending some money? well Malls are everywhere, you can go to malls and make your self refresh! Because these area has a centralized air conditioning, malls are surely the place to go, you can window shopping, stand-by, play at the gaming section, its up to you how you would spend your time in malls, happy malling!

5. Retreats.
Are you a religious person? This one is for you! you can join Holy retreat, Holy retreat are the gatherings of religious people and they conduct talks/Seminars/workshop and many other activities. If you are one of them why don't you join! enjoy ^^,

6. Vacation Trip
Miss the old place where you grew up? Well, why don't you go visit them, This summer you can go to your old town/province to spend you summer with.
visit you relatives and spend your time with them. Me, I usually do this, visiting my province and go in a trip sures fun and exciting to! so what are you waiting for. grab your bag pack and, TAKE OFF!

7. Stay at home.(My favorite)

Don't want anymore trouble? Tired of traveling other places? Don't want to exposed to sunlight?
If you do, well this is the best summer Getaway for you! STAY AT HOME!
You can do everything you want at home, sleep, eat, watch and surf the net. no one will disturb you, except for your mother?.. hahaha

well, that's all! this summer getaways sures fun, and there's a lot more thing you can do to get through the summer. well HAPPY SUMMER

Summer, summer, fever,

2009-04-05T05:21:00.000-07:00

Oh men! this days seems very long....
It's the day before holy Monday, crap, this day is so similar to every day in my life when I'm home. Guess there is nothing more boring that to sit on your sofa and doing nothing, I cant came up with any Idea......

My cousins plans to have an outing this coming Saturday, And I think I'm looking forward for it, But I'm not excited as much as they do, And I think I'm not sure if I can go with them... B'coz I need to return to the Call Center that I tried to apply, They called me the day after I took their exam, a certain employee of this Call Center Company dropped me a call and i was told that I failed their final exam, and they're giving a chance to past it, he told me to come to their office and I have to retake my final exam for me to join their company, Because I want to earn some living this summer vacation, Me and my other two colleagues applied to Tele Tech Call Center, but this two suddenly disappeared leaving me alone, That was my first attempt, as much as I expected, I'm to nervous to concentrate, that's the reason why I failed my last exam, but lucky me the gave me a chance, that's why I'm not wasting this opportunity.

Well, Back to the topic, I did nothing this day, except eating some summer beverage and reading my book and wasting time looking at the clouds, surely wasn't fun, but it worth paying some times,.

I hate to be exposed in sun rays, I'm a dark person, and I know my skin is dark, And that's why i don't want to expose my self against the sun rays. I don't want to be burnt, I'll become darker and darker, and if that happens, surely I will not go anywhere except my house.

I guess this summer will go until the end of month of may or even June, Hope this summer will gonna be fun and meaningful this year, I'm looking forward to it...

Thus, Kill Switch.

2009-04-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

(This is just for fun ^^, Nothing serious about this blog.)
Should I think about things happened wrong...
or should i keep on doing things as much as I can and move on...

Killing my time doing nothing, should i say it's a waste of what they called precious time? Or doing things that keeps me think and shoulder the burden of being told by someone and criticizing me. All of these thing, STOP!! I don't wanna hear what are you telling about.. your just good for nothing damned old species! There is no one here to trust, And I'm not one of those Stinky person that keeps telling others that I can be trusted, I don't want t be trusted by anyone. All I care is myself! Because caring for others is worthless and so stupid to do. Coz in the end, its just you and you alone, where are those shitty person you trusted and cared? they all gone and vanished. right, those person you trusted and expecting them to help you in times of need pop in the air like bubbles, suddenly blowing, the pop, vanished from your eyesight. In such situation, All hope is gone, c'mon I'm sick and tired of all those things! All i can trust is my self. I should think this a long ago, So stupid to ask for nothing. Leaving you behave like your a big bad burden to them.

I'm not feeling good this day, from the time being, I spend my week doing some school requirement. Tired and sick of all those work, I don't think i can handle anymore things to work on for the time being. I didn't even got my self back to condition, I just finished defending, and besides it just end up yesterday, I'm to sleepy to hang my nose up to something tiring again. Even now I'm doing this thing, Im too Sleepy to think any words to come. I just type in the things that first got into my big useless head, time pass by and nothing seems to happen. All people, things, doings, events are usually the same even times goes by and pass through their god da*** heads. Now What I should do next, Wait until someone say's I love you? Huh! No one is real, except Mr. real. Nowadays no one is "True", even the one you like will tell you, "Oh honey your the only one in my mind, blah blah blah blah," then "i love you so much, i can't lived without you," but the truth is this. "Huh, this stinks, i don't even want him/her to be by my side, I just want his/her fortune, money, and precious things.", see, am I right. hahahaha for those kind of bastards i just say, GO TO HE**, and meet your own kind. Thorn to pieces... who the hell are you to tell me i don't know how to love! Yeah right i don't know, since the time i loose all my hope to be with someone. But i don't care.. I don't need someone to care for me. all I need is me and myself, forget about those life ruining bitches! they are nothing but burden and pain.

Looking at this person make me feel i wan to kill someone, the lucky person that is in front of me, the one that's making me feel this way?! hahaha, do you want t live or d you want to meet your final date partner? Its you choice, there's no Boolean effect r void statement here, It's Just You who read this post and me who wrote this crazy things, there is so many things that i want to tell, but i can't... coz it's too many, every thing I'm thinking has been rumbled with every other.

Do you think I'm crazy,
if you ask me...
YES for the time being....
DO YOU THINK I'm LONELY?
Again... if you ask me the same Q?...
I'll say
YES, DEFINITELY...
Y?
I don't know?
But All i can Say is......

I'M HAPPY....
BEING LONELY...

Someday, you will understand my thoughts.......
for now, Just be puzzled of what am I talking......

First time here folks!

2009-03-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

Hello world! always the very first example in every kind of programming language. But for now its just a very nice greeting from me, and it is also my first time having my own blog and blogger account, ah actually not really, bcoz I have some published blog on my friendster account, hehehe.

I think its gonna be fun for me, now that i have my own page as my own personal diary, but not really a diary, anyway, first let me introduce my self. I'm cryzz, a college student from STI college, im a guy and also having problems like you readers. my age is confidential and don't think that i'm to old for this coz im just a teenager like everyone. I like to play digital games and video games like the other guys do @ my age, I am also a crazy minded teen, like other teens searching thier self, no! not finding thier selfs whether they are girl hearted guy or boy minded gal. What i mean finding thier own true goal and what they want to be. coz I'm also confused, what are the things i want, what are the goals should i reach and what kind of future I am aiming for. hehehe, I also like to hear and listen music but my old man always telling me that my music is very loud and noisy, and I dont care, as long as I'm happy t what I am doing no one can control me, hahaha. Ah by the way i pop is telling to stop hearing those loud music, It's bcoz most of the music i always hear is metal rock genre, hahaha every one who hear those kind of songs are saying that's so noisy and pretty dull to hear, specially girls and old ladies and gents, but for me hearing those kind of song makes me feel free for my problems for a while, hahaha at least for a while I'm skipping from reality huh, pretty good for me hahaha! I also hear different genre of music, coz i'm not that kind of person sticking to one thing only. I want t try every kind of different things to do. I dont like to stay in one place and growing roots on the same spot. i want to move from corner to corner.

Oh and i am also a computer geek, but my skills in computer are quite not good enought t call me completely a computer geek but i know some n how to trounbleshoot a PC, and thats quite good for me huh, Im am studying BS information Technology in a pretty good school known for its good standards and quality in computer technology and Information. My first goal is to be an analyst and a software developer but suddenly, i catch an interest for Multimedia arts. But i thought that it will be fine for me to finished what i started and, well im used to it, those prgramming stuffs and doing some simple computer system, well i guess it pretty fun. But its bloody when it comes to some difficult task to do. and it always getting in to my nerve. But in the end it came up good and finished, even we shed some blood for it. Well back to the business, oh were am I? oh Yeah intruducing my self hahaha. Hey dont you know I'm also a moody person. My feelings are overwhelming my self if i get moody. Yes I cant control my seft when iI'm angry, I used to shout and throw things that my hand cought up, and its hard for me to calm myself, as if i can kill. When i'm on g ood mood I liked to trip things and friends or people, I cant help teasing, fooling and laughing them. And when there are times that i am depressed and sad, I ignore every one who talks to me, Words coming from my mouth is seenless and I cant Bearly talk to anyone but only to my self. And ended up hating the things or the person who made me feel bad. I dont like emo guys, coz of thier wierd styles and outfits but hate to say this, sometimes I'm also an Emo kid, NOT on the style, NOT on the looks, but yes in feeling. I am emo When I'm sad and Depressed. hahaha thats just me. Well anyway Its me and no matter what happens I will not Hate my self being in that way.

Im also a bookworm i also read lot of stuffs. book, magazines, manga, from internet, reading materials that im interested on it. I spent hours and hours reading mangas in the net, it hok me up mangas are great japanese literature and its so good to read and every story has its own taste and uniqueness. My mom said that its good to read and read, but she ask me to read books nt using net coz its so expensive to paid for electric bills. coz i spent the whole night reading and reading from the net, our electric bill went up, so for an alternatives, i bought novel books from bookstores and second hand books from stores that has second hand books, and i really enjosyed it, i pick up interesting books and read it, now I'm doing it everytime i got time and buy some more books when I'm finished reading the old ones.

hehehe I think I wrte up all i wanted to say. I'm so glad sign up to this website coz it will serves as my personal writing notes. and I'm also expecting that my blogs will be read by other bloggers around the net..... well Its the start for me for being a blogger. GOOD LUCK TO ME!

If there is someone who wanna know more about me. this is my friendster account

cryzz friendster Well happy blogging!