Mugi

Last march 9 one of my companion was married with his Gf. sure it was fun to know that he was starting to build a family. And we all celebrated it with fun and joy even though i did not come to the reception bcoz there is some errand to be done with.=, and (sigh) i ended up doing nothing and all afternoon i spend it with pareng computer and mareng internet. really this two thing are the ones make my time worthy, even socializing became boring for me. many friends are consistently asking for me to out and wanted me to jammed with them(newly found friends. good they are, crazy as i am!) but i always turning them down. cozi felt It will be nostalgic for somehow. back to the topic. then when we talk from work he began to tell story about his wedding and more. i was interested so i listen to him all the way. Then something came up in my mind.

The Question Is:
1. "Is it really fun, happy, joyful being married?"
2. "What's the feeling being married?"
3. "what kind of hardship did my friend gone to just to get married?"
4. and (this is the cruel part) " thought most people who got married, in the long run will eventually divorced
and separated? what will it be for those two?"

then thoughts became words and begin to ask questions out of curiosity.

and then after getting their opinions i jump to my own conclusion

The answers:

1. The joy of being with their special someone... happiness... hehe I also got through this things but not to the extend to be married with her, even though I always enjoy being with her and doing things with joy with her make me happy, but not to think eternally. then someone told me "There is a word in this world that means choosing and a word that give the answer for who you choose." then In seconds I understand what that means. the word for choosing is GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND and if you already choose them its MARRIAGE.

2. Is getting married has different feeling from getting a gf/bf? thats what on my mind coz i never know what kind of feeling it was. coz I am not married! hahaha. "Lets leave it that way" I told myself, coz I want to know it for myself and not by others to talked to me. because there is no fun with it to know what its like to be.

3. he told me. it was really like hell when it comes to preparations, just asking the parents of the bride for her hands make him so worked out. the expenses they need to be done, the reception and all, but after that he told me that it was a rare and great experience that he will never forget. and after all the hellish thing. it became heaven. he told. i think what kind of heaven he is referring to? well i guess its the result of his effort with the feelings from their honeymoon. >.<

4. And i think there are too many people around me is cruel but i just realized? Im much more cruel that those. wah!!! since i got some idea from past that married couple, when they get bored by themselves, ending up with annulment. and breaking up. leaving their children behind with scorn faith with them. I disgust those kind of people to extend that i always think too many people are like them. thats why i told myself not to rush for these kind of things.but i was wrong, there are still people who believes in faith and trust. someone says. "Time will come, you, stubborn anjho(thats what they call me) you're to dense and always saying you're interest for girls have gone since the last time and just flirting around, someday finally you'll say WILL YOU MARRY ME to the girl you will find in the future, definitely asking like a dog(I'm totally pissed!) and will find the true joy of being married to your love. and when the time comes. It's up to you whether you'll break up or stay eternally(I'll smacked this person next time) " those last phrases he told me with a smile on his face, i think his referring to his own experience. (baka) idiot.

then after thinking of those kind of things, i know, something changes with the way i'm thinking for those things, even if it is a little i know somehow it helps me to realized something.
but some should be left behind and leave it to a persons own disposition in life.
I'm not going to rush...
I'm not going to fail again...
I will work hard for my future...
and i know, for a long run...
I will be rewarded....